Tuesday, January 24, 2012

On my heart..

It's POURING again today.. Back to flooding. I'm so thankful that I don't live close enough to any of the rivers for the flooding to affect us. But I feel for those people that do. And I'm sorta hoping my husband doesn't come home from Seattle tonight. I know I was just whining about him being gone but it worries me when he has to drive 4+ hours in this weather after working his ass off and not getting much sleep. It also sucks to have to go out in weather like this. I had to go to the grocery store today because today was the last day that chicken was on sale and we really needed it. Taking a lollygagging 3 year old to the grocery store in the rain = sooooo not fun.



Some thing else that I want to talk about that I'm not sure how to say or if it's ok to talk about but hey, it's honest. But I really hope I don't offend anyone. Anyone who has gone through a miscarriage or fertility issues will understand.. I'm sad that I'm not pregnant yet. I'm doing all the things I need to to get pregnant but it just hasn't happened yet and it makes me sad, maybe a little jealous, that so many people I know in real life, friends of facebook, other bloggers are getting pregnant. I want another baby so bad. I want my husband to have a child of his own flesh and blood (not that he doesn't treat Lyla like she is). I want Lyla to have a little brother or sister, a playmate, a friend for life. If you're a praying person please pray for us.


As I wrote this my husband called and won't be coming home tonight so thank goodness for that. I'd rather him drive all that way tomorrow in the day light.

xoxo
Jenn

7 comments:

  1. Good luck getting pregos. I wish i wasn't so fertil. I can't imagine how that feels.

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  2. They always say that when you stop worrying about it, it will happy. So maybe try to relax and not stress about it. I know that is a lot easier said than done. I'm not a praying person but I will send positive thoughts your way.

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  3. I want to be pregnant too!! but good luck with all of it. I know that God is mindful of us and He can help!

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  4. I will pray for you. I had a tough time getting pregnant with my first so I know how that can feel.

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  5. On average it takes a year of trying to get pregnant. Stress is the best birth control so don't stress over it. Good luck!

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  6. It will all work out the way its supposed to. I send you big hugs. You deserve all happiness.

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  7. Praying for you friend :) Oh and i love the word lollygagging lol fits our kids so perfectly

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