30 Day Photo Challenge

I'm going to do THIS!!!! I think it'll be kinda fun! Hopefully I can remember every day!
Today is a self portrait, so here it is.. Me in the place I spend A LOT of my time.. My kitchen.

Blessed..

As I'm laying here watching Frasier and talking to Darcie (her cool blog) on facebook, while also listening to the bigger (in size) love of my life snore like a freight train, I can't help but feel so blessed. I found this man who treats me like a queen. He'll never ever intentionally hurt me, he'll love me the best he can, which is more than enough for me. He loves my daughter as his own, which is beyond amazing. He just wants me to be happy. And man am I!! I hope I make him just as happy. We've had to face some sadness and some rough times but I feel that it brought us closer. I honestly can not wait to become Jennifer Pischel.

F you Friday..

Today I'm stealing an idea from a few blogs I follow.. Telling things/people to F off...

So here goes,,

F you gas prices... I miss just taking drives. That used to be a stress reliever for me but not anymore.

F you stupid singing bunny that my 2 year old (going on 8yr old) is obsessed with today. I'm tired of hearing "If you're happy and you know it clap your hands) in your creepy little voice.

F you weight that has quickly crept up on me and verrrrrry slowly coming off. Oh and my ginormous hips.

F you people who think you need a butt load of money to alter my wedding dress.

F you Obama.

F you blogpress app on my phone that won't let me save or publish any blog I attempt to write on my phone.

F you hormone levels that are still making me exhausted for no reason.

hmmmm.... I think that's it for this Friday.

Today I'm not physically feeling all that great. I think I should have rested more over the weekend but I'm sure I'll be ok. I'm still feeling totally exhausted and probably will be for a few more weeks. I just want to get past this, feel better and have life be semi normal again. I miss doing this that I'm just to tired to do. I miss crafting, cooking, baking.. My house is suffering, I wish I could twitch my nose like "Samantha" or put my arms together and nod my head like "Jeanie" and my house would be magically clean. I should be taking a nap right now since Lyla is but this and late at night after Adam and Lyla are both asleep is my only real "me time".
I love to read this blog about being a modern day mother and wife.. But today it's making me feel inadequate. I used to be a lot like her.. I hope, soon, I will be again.

Today is the day of my D&C.. I'm still not quite sure how I feel about it. I know it's something that has to be done but it's still kinda sad.. Lyla will be at grandma and Grandpa's all weekend too.. That kinda makes me sad. She's so innocent and has no idea what's going on and that cheers me up. Plus she's funny as heck!

Almost Paradise

With everything that's going on this is where I wish we all were again..

The Things Kids Say..

Lyla picked up a cable cord that was on the floor and says seriously mommy what the heck is this?!

While we're sitting waiting to turn into traffic she says "oh come on lady!"

I don't know where she got this but the other day she told me she wants some damn milk.

As I'm talking to her about how she could hurt herself by jumping on the bed she says "myself (points to herself), yourself (points to me) and daddyself (points out the bedroom door)."

I told Lyla "move it or lose it" she said "I wanna lose it!"

Me: Don't touch other people's cars! (as she's running her hand down the side of a dodge truck)
Lyla: It's a truck!

I had to stop fast cause a lady started crossing the street and lyla said mommy you freak me out!

As grandpa Phil was going to tickle her "don't get me grandpa! I'm fine!"

Stressed...

Like always I'm stressed about something. I'm waiting to find out if I'll have to have a D&C done and also found out that my unemployment money ran out. So yeah.. not fun right now. I think we'll be ok money wise but we'll just have to buckle down and watch our spending and I've applied for a few jobs on care.com and sittercity.com.

On a happier note we had a great time on vacation last week. Lyla abslutely loved the beach and the ocean. And of course playing with her cousins and our family. It was nice to be able to spend some extra time with Adam too.

Our wedding invitations are on their way and my wedding dress is here, church and park are reserved, cake is ordered.. We need to get a few decorations, flowers, rings, tux and a dress for Lyla. I'm sure there's more that I'm forgetting!